Bro

My bro tells me to have a baby so his kid can have a cousin.  How selfish.

His wife tells me the same.

Both parties say kids are great but marriage is so-so.  I hear the marriage part alot...  that marriage is tough.  People say kids are tough but fewer say it sucks.

But i gues if u say having kids sucks, then its like saying u dont like your kids which people will think is evil.  Saying u dont like wife is not evil I guess.

Cross Roads part N

Was talking to some folks.

About being old.

Anyways 42 now.. at crossroads of career.  Most at 42 prob have 1 more shot at doing something in life before:
- hiding at a company hoping u dont get fired hoping u got enough retirement
- moving up the exec ladder which is the only place safe as an old man in this world

So at 42 I wonder what is the move..
1) Stay w/ the bank and move up slowly... though this bank is dying.  it would take forever
2) Try a move inside banking and float the resume (no hard I will do it)
3) Make a move outside banking and re-start a career

Hmmm... some way 42 isn't too old.  50 is too old.
I been saying to 32yo coworkers u should try something new.  To 40yo I usually say stick it out.. but 40-60 retirement is a long way to go.

Anyways not sure what my plan is.  But I am getting weak... that is for sure

long post lost

damn I had a long post that I lost

the summary of that post was that I enjoy single life and just being able to do my own shit ..  it's kind sorry but true.  u get older and u don't wanna sacrifice your free time doing stuff w a gf...

the other reality is if I can't meet a girl who I'm super gaga for then I definitely rather just do my own thing ... and honestly I haven't met one that does (ie I haven't met and scored w one)

the Sad note is I date but I my success rate is bad.  just went on a date w a Korean gal tonight but apparently no action wow what w failure....  feels bad to  strike out.  but heck it's all a game ままま