Hmmm the single life

So latest updates...

I had some girl over, and I found that I had 0 toothbrushes left!  I usually steal a few extra at hotels and stockpile them for "guests" - so either.. I haven't had as many hotel stays recently so my stock is dimished, or I have had alot of girls over.

I don't think the latter is true...  but it made me think.. i guess i score a small supply of mediocre girls  per year ... no super hot lawyer models otherwise i would lock them in as gf or wife or whatever..  but makes me think as single man...

the pros
+ you can do what you want.. nobody bothers you
+ i go biking.. snowboarding.. sleep.. play games.. eat what i want
+ spend less money (assuming your gf/wife is poor)
+ no stress in life really just do what u want

the negatives
- go thru moments of loneliiness and boredom and suicidal mania
- eat alone alot
- travel alone
- if get crippled nobody will feel responsible to take care of me

Well what can i say...  i dont think this is the best, but its the way it is now.

Given the pro's.. and given I am 41 now, its not so easy to find the girl of my dreams.. my day of finding that is past I think.  I see a super hot  young girl... and I think wow I would like to date that -- but I had my time and I kinda feel like its past.  My coworker (who is only 30) and I were talking about it in the same way.  Anyways key is to enjoy life...

Go to NZ and heli snowboard, that'll be fun. hahahaa

ken

I feel shocked and stressed about ken

sure I abandoned him like everyone else did in his hire times of need .. only tom was able to sustain the relationship probably because Tom loves being first hand in presence of despair -- while most others like myself don't want to face reality and what could happen to us oneday 

anyways I had a memory of the good old times .. hanging out in Tahoe gambling and boarding and drinking .. we went to Hong Kong for the first time together .. great times really

now the dude can barely walk ( for those who don't know - my old friend had a brain aneuyism and is near death undergoing his 2nd brain operation today ).  god bless and save his life.. but even if he lives he may be in a wheelchair for life or who knows what ..

so this kind of stuff happens and nobody can predict it.  sure if u r 400lbs and drinking and smoking one may not be surprised but plenty of athletic dudes topple over too.

bottom like enjoy life .. live to the fullest whatever that means for you. 

what it means for me .. is my biggest problem in life ...

on the happy material note I bought a new bike.  I'm excited it's coming from UK in 2 weeks !   I was deciding between a designer budnitz, a cheap us maker Raleigh and this ditch titanium builder and went with the latter.  let's hope I don't hey cancer from titanium.  more on bike later 

Noodle attempt finalie ?

- sinew beef chunks (3) - more near tendon chunk

- 800 ml water
- 70 ml soy
- 70 ml mirin
- tablespoon veg oil
- tablespoon goma oil
- 1/4 onion chopped
- 2 cloves garlic
- ~12 chinese peppercorn
- 3 star anisa
- 3 teapoon light brown sugar
- 1 green fresh spicy pepper
- 1 crushed red dried pepper
- a few grinds of black pepper
- 2/3 cube of ginger sliced
- 1 knorr bouillon cube

I forgot to sauteee onions garlic this time, but browned meat, then put everything else in

Sinew has a nice texture.

I think the bouillon cube helped alot it seems to have a heartier flavor.  I dont know if i should be adding this it is like cheating... but seems to help!

Noodle attempt 2

2nd attempt is cutting soy sauce, maybe bit less spice or at least no red peppers and sauce and try some sugar for cutting the salty flavors..

this time i made about a 1/2 sized portion so the amount of water etc is less.

-850ml water
-50 ml soy
-50 ml mirin
- cube of ginger chopped
- 2 garlic gloves chopped
- 1/3 onion chopped
- 2 teaspoon brown sugar
- 3 cubes of bit fatty stew beef
- corn oil and sesame oil
- teaspoon chinese peppercorns
- 4 chinese anisa star
- 1 green spicy pepper
- tablespoon corn starch

Braised meat w/ garlic and onions
Cooked for 2 hours low heat w/ everything

Still bit salty!!!   And too much chinese pepper, gotta hold back on that.   Anise level was maybe ok.... or cut that a bit as well.   I think sugar content is about right.   Maybe thicker... also too much fat/oil, so maybe have to cool and skim some fat off.

Meat came out really nice.