Sunday, September 30, 2012

Winter loneliness

Winter is coming

There is also a typhoon hitting right now....

Over Xmas and new years.. I maybe going to niseko alone for a few days or will tag w my young coworker and his wife maybe...  sad

Its the product of 1 gf has shitty jobs and can't get away, 2 have too young a gf, 3 not married and 4 have too much time on my hands

Hmmm I love snow but can I really spend 11 nights in niseko???

Maybe I will hop around bit between niseko and local spots like hakuba hummmmm... yes boring post

Thursday, September 27, 2012

The Layoffs

Today an ex-colleague of mine in tech got fired.  He was a trader the last 1.5 years.  Once being a trader meant you were destined for fame, fortune, and f***ing... now you are just getting f***ed...

In equities they had 6 traders/sales I think get fired.

More to come!  Exciting times indeed.

But whatever thats fine.. I actually dont care about job life so much.  I feel I do okay work, but its a hassle.  As I move up, and inherit teams and work w/ other people it gets political.  What does that mean?  It means people are suspicious and people are ambitious and nervous about their job, and people don't like people.  As a manager I get in the middle of it, because I have teams here and teams there and there are personality conflicts and I have to deal with it to make it work.  Boss like some people doesn't like some, etc etc.. and in the end its politics because people naturally look to take sides, but then don't want to get in trouble later so they take sides strategically.

Upcoming trips:
 Oct 4-8 - HKG and swing by MFM of course
 Nov 8-11 - Vegas
 Nov 14-15 - Singapore
 Nov 16-19 - India for wedding !
 Dec 14-16 - snow season starts in Furano, Hokkaido
 Dec 22-25 - Niseko !
 Dec 29-Jan 2 - Niseko again ???  (not booked yet.. )

Wow now that I look at this.. I have to ask myself.. why am I going to Niseko, then back and then Niseko again... wtf  Hmm I may have to think about this again, maybe I will do Niseko for like 10 days.





Friday, September 21, 2012

Mission in Life

I desperately need a mission in life.

I don't know what to do to discover it though.  I wonder whats wrong with me.   Let me look at my life.

The good:
- I have a good job
- I have money
- I have a 24yo girlfriend who is nice and pretty
- I am pretty healthy

The bad:
- No passion in life
- No serious hobbies outside Snowboarding
- Mom is in bad health
- Sometimes feel lack of brotherhood of friends next to me

I'm not sure what gap to fill.  I don't sleep well at night because I think about this stuff... only thing keeping me connected to reality is probably work.   And I often think about removing that work part of the equation.. as I do the gf part.  If I let go of all the material things, what I have left.. is real ?  Or is it nothing?

Maybe I'll go buy that $20,000 Vacheron Constantin watch in Nov when I swing thru Singapore.  That should keep me happy for a few days.

Hmmm... guess I'll have a beer and read a book tonight.   I really want to get off my ass and finish my iphone program.  Uggg...


Thursday, September 20, 2012

Mom

<p>I'm taking care of mom this week</p>
<p>Its good to do...&nbsp; she needs help cause she is on crutches and barely walking but it makes me wonder  what her life is gonna be like in the next years and if my life when I am dying will be similarly void of perceivable joy

Life is tough man... ahmen