Dang, seems my money making side-action project is coming to an end.
Well i guess I milked this for a long time now.. like.. 7 years omg... ? It had to happen. Some years I felt god damn just let it die... its a hassle to have to support this thing. Now I realize, you should never complain about free money.
It wasn't that much, but imagine the loss of an extra $1000-$2000 a month of cashflow.. i suppose that is the cashflow that I've been using to live large in tokyo! Damn times will get tougher now!
Now I see how Tombo lives large, having 2 jobs allows this!
Oh well life moves on.
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
Snow -- the new meaning of life?
I went snowboarding on Monday. I took the day off.
Wow, it was great. Going solo isn't so great, but its okay. Last week I went w/ 6 others. This weekend I go with 4 others, and the following weekend with like 8 people.
Anyways I found revived passion in snowboarding. I found the powder situation here is great, so I am mostly cutting thru trees and "off-piste" or off trail in search of powder. The caveat to this is that some runs will lead you to nowhere and death.. my friend said she got stuck for 2hrs last weekend. My other friend went down a nowhere path and had to dig his way out for 10hrs. I kid you not.
In my case I'm not that adventurous so I follow paths that others have gone down. But still the powder is deep and if you fall or get stuck, it takes a while to dig out and is god damn tiring. But there is a thrill of cutting thru some path that is unknown, dodging trees, trying to stay afloat and then .. finally finding daylight back to the main trail ! Its really a great high.
I probably got stuck 1/2 the time, but the other 1/2 when I had a clean run thru the treeline it was awesome.
I may go every weekend this year! I invested $1000 on new board, boots, bindings, etc, so I should maximize this investment.
Wow, it was great. Going solo isn't so great, but its okay. Last week I went w/ 6 others. This weekend I go with 4 others, and the following weekend with like 8 people.
Anyways I found revived passion in snowboarding. I found the powder situation here is great, so I am mostly cutting thru trees and "off-piste" or off trail in search of powder. The caveat to this is that some runs will lead you to nowhere and death.. my friend said she got stuck for 2hrs last weekend. My other friend went down a nowhere path and had to dig his way out for 10hrs. I kid you not.
In my case I'm not that adventurous so I follow paths that others have gone down. But still the powder is deep and if you fall or get stuck, it takes a while to dig out and is god damn tiring. But there is a thrill of cutting thru some path that is unknown, dodging trees, trying to stay afloat and then .. finally finding daylight back to the main trail ! Its really a great high.
I probably got stuck 1/2 the time, but the other 1/2 when I had a clean run thru the treeline it was awesome.
I may go every weekend this year! I invested $1000 on new board, boots, bindings, etc, so I should maximize this investment.
Sunday, January 17, 2010
I often wonder...
I often wonder if my ex-gf, the psychopath, thinks back and is sad she didn't try harder to make things work.. I wonder if she has regret about how she handled things and realizes she was the one who pushed me away with her psychotic control freak nature, it wasn't just me... I really was trying in this relationship. Thus, I do wonder.. part of me thinks she doesn't regret and just thinks its all my fault, hence the fundamental problem in the relationship. Its quite sad really.
I definitely feel alot of regret that I wish thing worked differently. I often second guess if I did things differently.. or if I had done this or that it'd have been okay. But in the end, I know I there were far more problems than I could solve on my own here. So I accept it.. but I'm one to wallow in the past, its my curse.
Anyways I wanted to get that written down. I think about it regularly.
Its critical we all go out of this world knowing we did the best we could. If you can do that, then there should be no problem letting go. Its like the final game in "Friday Night Lights", coach billy bob says as long as you know you did your best and didn't hold back then you will be satisfied with life. I don't know if I'm at that level yet!
I definitely feel alot of regret that I wish thing worked differently. I often second guess if I did things differently.. or if I had done this or that it'd have been okay. But in the end, I know I there were far more problems than I could solve on my own here. So I accept it.. but I'm one to wallow in the past, its my curse.
Anyways I wanted to get that written down. I think about it regularly.
Its critical we all go out of this world knowing we did the best we could. If you can do that, then there should be no problem letting go. Its like the final game in "Friday Night Lights", coach billy bob says as long as you know you did your best and didn't hold back then you will be satisfied with life. I don't know if I'm at that level yet!
Monday, January 11, 2010
How week 2 is going
Friday I went to dinner w/ an admin from work. This gal is also a bit older, but has a very alluring bust, not quite as alluring as Tombo's japanese police-cop but trust me busty girls are not eays to find in Japan. However I need to stop wasting time on these not-sure girls. Also work girls are not good to mess with. As a result, I went to bed at 2am.
Saturday I woke at 5am to go snowboarding. Oh man what a great time.. I was dog dead tired and sore when we finished at 4pm and got home around 8pm with a slight headache, etc. Sunday I pretty much was dead, got a massage, took a few baths, and then watched 5 movies at home. Is that productive? I saw Saw1-4, then Saw 5-6 the next day. I must say I was quite pleaed w/ this series.
Monday I went to the gym and saw a cute girl there... but stay focused, worked out, got haircut, did some work from home for both of my jobs. Yes I too have 2 jobs, though 1 is fake. Tomorrow another grueling day at the office! I didn't sleep well all last week, so tonight I may force myself to bed shortly with a sleeping pill or something. Can't have my week start in hell again.
Anyways I'm happy to have gone to gym 2 weeks in a row and snowboarding was great. 2010 is starting ok. Maybe I can sleep tonight.
I discovered Drake's video Best I Ever Had is my new favorite. Love that.
Saturday I woke at 5am to go snowboarding. Oh man what a great time.. I was dog dead tired and sore when we finished at 4pm and got home around 8pm with a slight headache, etc. Sunday I pretty much was dead, got a massage, took a few baths, and then watched 5 movies at home. Is that productive? I saw Saw1-4, then Saw 5-6 the next day. I must say I was quite pleaed w/ this series.
Monday I went to the gym and saw a cute girl there... but stay focused, worked out, got haircut, did some work from home for both of my jobs. Yes I too have 2 jobs, though 1 is fake. Tomorrow another grueling day at the office! I didn't sleep well all last week, so tonight I may force myself to bed shortly with a sleeping pill or something. Can't have my week start in hell again.
Anyways I'm happy to have gone to gym 2 weeks in a row and snowboarding was great. 2010 is starting ok. Maybe I can sleep tonight.
I discovered Drake's video Best I Ever Had is my new favorite. Love that.
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
Life and Excercise and Destiny
I did it, I went to the gym for 1hr.
Forgive me but I am starting slow. I did 30min on the bike, and 45min of weights. I really should run because biking is boring as hell and cardio I am not into so rather do it quickly and hardcore.
However I recall telling my coworker while in the hater mood, how staying healthy doesn't do much for most people. Most people probably are destined to live whatever length they are by merit of genes and circumstance. I am thinking my ideal self, full of vigor and exercise and fiber may live to 69. My avg self of staying semi-healthy 66, and if i am a relatively lazy blob then 63. So whats that buy me.. 6 years? Is it worth it?
I suppose looking forward I don't see the merit. But at the twilight of my life as the end nears, will I cherish every waking day and hope for just one more fantasy football league, or to see one more hot girl's photo in the next issue of Playboy.. ? Hmm I'm having dark thoughts alrighty.
I think perspective would change if I had family/kids. Then I may really feel something more.
I had some bleak thoughts about getting my act together and my coworker said I was already focused and efficient. I said hahaaaa... I'm soooo good at faking!
Forgive me but I am starting slow. I did 30min on the bike, and 45min of weights. I really should run because biking is boring as hell and cardio I am not into so rather do it quickly and hardcore.
However I recall telling my coworker while in the hater mood, how staying healthy doesn't do much for most people. Most people probably are destined to live whatever length they are by merit of genes and circumstance. I am thinking my ideal self, full of vigor and exercise and fiber may live to 69. My avg self of staying semi-healthy 66, and if i am a relatively lazy blob then 63. So whats that buy me.. 6 years? Is it worth it?
I suppose looking forward I don't see the merit. But at the twilight of my life as the end nears, will I cherish every waking day and hope for just one more fantasy football league, or to see one more hot girl's photo in the next issue of Playboy.. ? Hmm I'm having dark thoughts alrighty.
I think perspective would change if I had family/kids. Then I may really feel something more.
I had some bleak thoughts about getting my act together and my coworker said I was already focused and efficient. I said hahaaaa... I'm soooo good at faking!
Sunday, January 3, 2010
My 2010 Goals
I suppose its a good thing to write goals. The act of thinking about it is critical -- almost as critical as doing it. One can argue whether its execution or planning that is key.
I won't digress and explain my 2009 in detail, but I can sum it up in a few lines:
- ended relationship w/ psychopath which almost killed me
- survived the post-bankrupt era and emerged a winner at work
- traveled to Shanghai and SZ (new places), revisted HK, California, Vancouver, and Hawaii.
- got fatter by maybe 8lbs
My generic goals:
- Career -> achieve next promotion status (VP)
- Money -> start saving a little more than I do now, reel in some of the frivilous living and keep it "real"
- Friends -> try to stay in better touch w/ family and friends
- Love -> try to find a good girl
- Lifestyle -> drink less, exercise more
- Life -> be happy, enjoy everyday!
Specifics:
- Get to work by 9am. I work at a bank and shamefully.. i rarely get in by 9am. Official start time is 840am, but I often come in at 10am. This is going to burn me oneday.
- Read 1 book per quarter
- Stay focused on the type of girl I want to date and execute*(1).
- Get stuff done (GTD). Try not to procrastinate, when I see something to do, do it ASAP.
- Go to gym, join gym, go regularly. Try to do a small/simple 30min workout at home every night!
- Sleep 8hrs a night. Take medication to sleep if needed!
But this brings me to my other thought.. this year, 2010 is a pivotal one for me. I really think about it, and I believe this may be my last year (on earth? no but in Japan). I think by years end, I will move to HK (to live 1 more year abroad), or move back to North America.
In order to plan my exit, I have to focus.. I have to stay marketable in the job market, which will be a challenge depending where I want to live (ie, no banks in California if thats where I want to go). Its a big career year for me. If I don't get promoted then I have to think.. do I stay another year here? Even if I do get promoted I have to think.. what is my future plan?
I'm considering trying to go from line manager of the system I'm working on, to being a regional architect for the division. There is a global architect in LDN, so perhaps I can join that guys global team, and be local rep. Being a regional head of architecture and building a small highly technical team maybe a better option for me, esp if I want to escape back to America oneday! Plus I find I am not a great project management, I don't have the organizational skills for it.
Footnotes:
(1) -- Last 3 girls I dated: a) older admin (38?) who is a red-neck republican... too old, what am I doing, plus political/personality misfit. b) japanese gal who doesn't speak english, smokes, drinks alot, etc... c) chinese girl who speaks japanese but doesn't speak english, but had huuuuge breasts.... seriously I need to focus my efforts. I am looking for english speaker, age 27-33, nice, pretty, good family and values and non-psychotic!).
I won't digress and explain my 2009 in detail, but I can sum it up in a few lines:
- ended relationship w/ psychopath which almost killed me
- survived the post-bankrupt era and emerged a winner at work
- traveled to Shanghai and SZ (new places), revisted HK, California, Vancouver, and Hawaii.
- got fatter by maybe 8lbs
My generic goals:
- Career -> achieve next promotion status (VP)
- Money -> start saving a little more than I do now, reel in some of the frivilous living and keep it "real"
- Friends -> try to stay in better touch w/ family and friends
- Love -> try to find a good girl
- Lifestyle -> drink less, exercise more
- Life -> be happy, enjoy everyday!
Specifics:
- Get to work by 9am. I work at a bank and shamefully.. i rarely get in by 9am. Official start time is 840am, but I often come in at 10am. This is going to burn me oneday.
- Read 1 book per quarter
- Stay focused on the type of girl I want to date and execute*(1).
- Get stuff done (GTD). Try not to procrastinate, when I see something to do, do it ASAP.
- Go to gym, join gym, go regularly. Try to do a small/simple 30min workout at home every night!
- Sleep 8hrs a night. Take medication to sleep if needed!
But this brings me to my other thought.. this year, 2010 is a pivotal one for me. I really think about it, and I believe this may be my last year (on earth? no but in Japan). I think by years end, I will move to HK (to live 1 more year abroad), or move back to North America.
In order to plan my exit, I have to focus.. I have to stay marketable in the job market, which will be a challenge depending where I want to live (ie, no banks in California if thats where I want to go). Its a big career year for me. If I don't get promoted then I have to think.. do I stay another year here? Even if I do get promoted I have to think.. what is my future plan?
I'm considering trying to go from line manager of the system I'm working on, to being a regional architect for the division. There is a global architect in LDN, so perhaps I can join that guys global team, and be local rep. Being a regional head of architecture and building a small highly technical team maybe a better option for me, esp if I want to escape back to America oneday! Plus I find I am not a great project management, I don't have the organizational skills for it.
Footnotes:
(1) -- Last 3 girls I dated: a) older admin (38?) who is a red-neck republican... too old, what am I doing, plus political/personality misfit. b) japanese gal who doesn't speak english, smokes, drinks alot, etc... c) chinese girl who speaks japanese but doesn't speak english, but had huuuuge breasts.... seriously I need to focus my efforts. I am looking for english speaker, age 27-33, nice, pretty, good family and values and non-psychotic!).
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