Smoking up $$$

I found myself lately smoking $30 cuban cohiba's every week... taking taxi to work everyday ($20), and buying $200 burberry apparel ...

Whats happening to me.. is it that I don't care about money anymore.. ? do I feel the end is near and I don't need to be so cheap as I was 10yrs ago ? Am I just being a poser and acting snobbish and rich when I'm really just a working class schmo ?

I don't know... things are changing though.

NYC -- there are alot of good looking girls. But how does it compare to Tokyo ? Well.. not as many skanky girls, Tokyo is skank central. Lots of huge breasted women.. and large, and medium .. they are a bit chunkier, but definitely breasts galore. I find myself staring alot due to the lack of breastage in Tokyo as a whole.

I had this thought.. if I took a survey and asked females:
1. Are you happy?
2. Do you like your job?
3. Do you have a husband?
4. Do you have kids?
5. Do you get along w/ your family?
6. Do you exercise regularly?
And if I noted their breast size.. would the presence of larger breasts possibly have any correlation with happiness? I pondered this today.. I know its sooo deep. Yes.. are larger breasted women happier??

Seize the opportunity

I must say, I have a golden opportunity.. when I think of focusing on a goal, I think of a few things.

1. There is a goal..
2. There is a path..
3. There is the execution

I've often failed at #3. I know the path and have a goal, but I can not get there alot of times due to laziness or half hearted attempts. I am talking mainly about work, but it probably applies so my love life too.

Take for example if you wanted to be a trader. There are many guys in IT who have made it.. the path is clear. You bust your ass, come in at 7am leave at midnight, kiss some ass, really do alot of extra things for the trading desk, and then 1yr later it might happen. While people know it, there are few who can execute. People say they want to do it.. but few try. But the payoff is incredible.. its akin to studying to be a plastic surgeon or something..

I feel i have the opportunity to really make a name and move up quick. My boss is giving me more and more.. really stretching me. More staff, more projects.. I'm actually choking a bit, but if I can handle it then I can move to the next level... which is amazing for me, given I was stuck at my last role.

Anyways my problem is always being half-ass... things I need to do are clear.. come in earlier.. don't drop balls.. show i can handle more and more. But.. we'll see how it goes. I go to NY tomorrow to meet more Sr managers.

I feel good about my career prospects for now. Just damn hard to execute when you are a lazy ass like me....

Could always be worse..

California bracing for minimum wage for all state workers... ala swartzeggera - yesterday night overhead a conversation at a bar w/ this dude bitching about how he didn't get a job offer cause they gave it to some japanese guy, he's broke he's $1350 behind in rent and about to get evited.. shouldn't be out, shouldn't be spending money drinking etc etc...

Times are tough all around man... I gotta say. Okay for me its not tough, and for most of my friends its not tough, but its tough out there is what I mean.

Sometimes I wonder if I deserve the insulated lifestyle.. am I losing touch w/ the people ??

Oh man I met the hottttest girl last night. Damn... damn... damn....

US economy is dying. What the hell.. is Obama a dud???
Will BP recover?
Should I buy some SPY now or is SPY lame.. what the hell to invest in?? More JP Yen ??
Stay tuned...