Hmmmm

I still feel I have so much potential in life...

Though time is against me now. If I want to do something now is better time than any I suppose. Its about focus!

"I need you to focus!" -- Legendary Coach Taylor from Friday Night Lights.

Why we can't ..

I had this new deep thought.

First off, today I did nothing. It is Sunday.. Last night I was out till 1am or so, came home watched part of "Once Upon a Time in America" and dozed off at 3am or so. Woke up at 7am, finished watching most of it to find this movie was not as great as I recall -- or was it? I don't know.. watching between 1am-8am is not best focus time. Aftewards i dozed in and out until I finally got out of bed at 1pm and made lunch. I was going to go biking and stop by the office, and maybe meet a few others, but instead I zonked out and napped from 3pm- till 7pm totally dissing various plans of the day.

My summary sounds like a waste to some (even myself) but in reality I only do this sometimes, and other times like snow season I'm the opposite. But point is, this is how life is when you are 30's and single. You do what you want and nobody can tell you otherwise.

I think this is the reason why its hard to settle down as the years go on. You become too independent. Its hard to imagine waking up Sunday and going to church for example just because my wife or gf wants me to... thats something I can recall recently w/ gf's or even in my 20's -- wanting to sleep or play games on weekends. Wow I must be lazy ??

I guess the key is to find a gf or wife that lets you do whatever you want.. if you like to go out, find someone who likes to do the same.. if u like to sleep, find someone who likes to sleep too. Hmm I don't know but as time goes on you get used to being alone sadly enough!

On the other hand.. its being selfish vs giving to your partner and giving to your family. Growing up and taking on new responsbilities vs not having to worry. Taking on alot of management is similar in that sense.. being a solo developer is alot less stress, just focus on your own stuff.

Weak Won

I am past 1 week at my new job.

I'm managing 6+1 contractor now all locally... going to be a handful. I used to manage like 11, but 6 were offshore, and 4 were different offices, so i really just had 1 local to manage, and most of the guys I knew already. Quite a new thing to manage a new team.

Anyways job is good, I think its a good step for me.

New Job Day 3

Day 3 is done...

I feel.. this is a tougher job than my last.

Is it more rewarding? We shall see... but its a necessary step in my life.

Holy shit my vacation is over

Damn.. vacation is over.



I start new career Monday. Seems I have 7 people reporting to me. Wow bigger than I expected.. its going to be challening....