Show me the money

Hmmm pay is so evil... at banks we get the big payday once a year and it came.. and went. well the actual settlement is next week.

The only thing to remember is.. people aren't paid whats fair and just, they are just paid what they can get in the outside market. Really quite odd.. is it right? Supply/Demand based?

Anyways I got a pretty good bonus. I think.. I'm overpaid.... I guess its better to be over than under paid. So I'm not complaining.

But I'm embarking on a new adventure maybe... if I get this new job. It may actually pay less.. thats kinda lame. Maybe opens the door to potentially reaching the next level though, so perhaps that is worth the short term sacrifice of a few dimes.

Interviewing yet again...

Is my eternal search for gratification a dire and hopeless one I wonder?

As many know, I have interviewed more than more people dream about... and I'd say I'm so good at it now that I can land most jobs (hit rate is down from 95% to about 75% -- its getting harder). But as I age, its not wise to keep jumping ship.

So.. I had 3 rounds of interviews compressed in 1 week. It was quite hardcore and was a flash. I'd say it went quite well and I may take this new job. I don't know if it means more money, but the responsibility is bigger and will require alot more dedication.

But it has 5 less vacation days.. at my age should I strive for balance in life or challenge? I enjoy slacking and coming in late, leaving early.. getting paid max $/hr.. but at the same time I feel like I'm not really accomplishing anything with my life. Now the question is... should I build a life outside work or let work become life ?

Now I'm back...

So I'm back.. and in action, back to the grind at work, back to the tokyo action.

Thought my last blog said i shall stay in asia.. I ponder socal and hkg every other day. Hkg for adventure, socal for the easy life..

The dilemna with moving to socal is this.. Tokyo and big cities.. you meet alot of people. Being single is more fun, but at the same time, if you watched SexInTheCity you will realize its a tough town as well. Relationships come and go and your attitude changes as a result. For example, in the 2 weeks I have come back, I met at least 6 new girls (a few at the local bars, a few from outings w/ friends, etc). Now note, maybe all of them are low life bitches who want nothing more than a free drink or dinner, but there is a flow to this madness that keeps one alive...

Side note, it amazes me how much girls like to eat for free.. they don't mind going out w/ random guys just for free food and drink?? Must be some ego thing for them to know they can get a guy to pay for them?

At work I suffer.. from the affliction of my manager not having 100% faith/confidence in me. Its come to my realization.. this is a critical hinderence in my career progression. Obvoiusly its partially due to reality which is that I am not reliable and I am not motivated. However, I think it also comes with a duality which is.. people are motivated when they have something they want to work on... not everyone will give 110% on anything they are asked to do... but then again maybe thats what we need to do to be make it in this world ?

zzzzzz