My Next Move

Its amazing I was able to keep my work going during my months of trauma w/ the ex-gf.

Now I am a bit more focused and suddenly I have like 10 people on this project I am in charge of. I can barely keep above water now, I dont know how I did it before. So I guess I should focus, right now my project people are not working directly for me, but it is a step towards managing my own team. Right now though managing 10 fricking people in different regions on a project is way more work than managing a team of 3 which is what I would prefer to do.

Anyways I think back to the ex-gf Miss Korea at times. Was it clear from the start that it was trouble? I think so.. lack of reasonableness and ability to compromise and discuss things. Some things she didnt like and that was final, she didnt like it. I think I tried too hard to smooth things over because I never had an unreasonable gf before. But in the end, some people cannot be reasoned with, and that problem never goes away. Another obvious sign is her poor relationship with her parents.

The good things were that I thought she was adorable, good cook, clean, and yes she was a porn star in bed. I think the adorable and porn-star qualitities are dangerous ones to bank a relationship on. People all get old and lose cuteness. Peoples sexual drives also change. What you can rely on is their good nature, good values, and family upbringing.

Anyways I will clearly seperate the LT potential from the trash going forward. Will try not to mess w/ the trash, but I am in a trashy town so its hard to sort it out.

This is Saturday. I gotta go get a new cell phone! Wooo... shop your way to happiness?? There was an article on how trauma/stress incites more spending on lavish items. I maybe will buy a $10,000 rolex next.