The Easy Life 2

Yeah its the easy life for me. Just got a 10% bonus for doing nothing, basically the company cashed out our retirement plan so bamn, instant money for nothing and at a rate of 90 jpy2usd. Later this week we get our bonus #'s.. and due to our bankruptcy, who knows but i may get money for doing nothing while most companies are laying people off left and right.

I'm sure the only other guy doing really well is my 'Hou compadre since Ogamanation has struck and he is a grad of this prestigious rich kid prep school. That school will probably flourish more to create more elitist while a few hundred other schools will fail. But hey we are not a socialist economy so more power to the powerful right?

So for me, I ponder the fundamental rational of life and love. I think I find myself at odds with myself and my current situation esp the girlfriend. I think the biggest problem is being in a town like Tokyo means any girl who is half hot, or full hot, or 1.5x hot finds herself with men hitting on them at all times. Sure this happens in Hawaii I found, as while on vacation my gf was approached like on a daily basis by some random dude trying to talk to her while I was not at close guardian proximity, but I guess in Hawaii the dudes are mostly bums. In Tokyo the dudes are wealthy men who offer the girls apartments, cars, rolex watches etc. I compare notes w/ my coworker who has this same issue.. his gf has men propositioning them with lavish gifts as well.

I guess my point is that it comes down to trust. I must say, its the fundamentally most important thing in a relationship, to have full and utmost trust in your partner. So much that you are willing to put your life in their hands. You can never positively know what your partner has in mind, so having the faith is so important.. I can't stress it enough.

My problem it seems is I don't know if I can trust this girl yet. And I guess she doesn't trust me yet from my last conversation w/ her.. its somewhat of the problem of living in a town like Tokyo where everyone is cheating and having casual sex is as common as eating ice cream on the street. The game is different here. In the end I wonder if I am letting lust overwhelm me in this relationship....