Parasite

In Heroes there are two brothers. Nathan and Peter. Their relationship reminds me in some odd ways of myself and my brother. My brother like Nathan is a very focused and successful guy, single minded in his efforts at times all at the expense of others around him. As a result, like Nathan he's successful by typical standards. I may have the potential to exceed him but I am not nearly focused enough -- like Peter I feel like I should be doing something, but what it is I'm not sure. And like Peter I'm a bit sensitive and want to do the right thing.... all the thought and doubt gets in the way of completing goals.

Interesting though.. I also pondered whether my brother would let me die like Nathan was going to do to Peter. Well who knows, real life isn't quite like the movies or TV.

So my haircutter today (not a bad looking gal, probably 28-30, kind of my type I think in a motherly, breastfeeding kind of way), tells me I don't look single or don't look like I'm looking (or something like that). I am getting that vibe alot from girls. I am hearing that "you don't look like you're looking for a girlfriend" or "you seem like you are happy being alone" or whatever. Hmm what the heck does that mean I don't know. If I interpret in the latter form its not that good, but I guess its better than being told I look lonely like VIG gets. I'd rather have the "damn we should get naked" effect on girls that our friend Booby has. Alas.....

Well its too bad my haircutter is married and has a kid. I guess I could still hit that, but again, deep down inside I am a nice guy like Peter so it prevents me from executing on this type of life.