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My friend from my last company e-mails me and says he heard jr. traders at his company make $750k. I said bah whatever. This is the problem working at a Wall St firm (and really any firm) -- so much bullshit "i heard blah blah" about compensation and some other dude making more than you. Fortunately I've mostly been out of the big $$ mindset so I don't really care so much for money -- I'm looking for the passion!!

Which brings me to the next topic of the day.. I had a chat w/ a dude at work and we both agreed that in our 20's it was easy to be passionate, and in our 30's we don't know what happened, whether we learned that all the energy we put into work was for naught, or that we just got lazy with age.

I still feel strong about the idea of being single minded and how that helps you. The ability to truly focus is something I wish I had. Of course that ability costs you in terms of empathy. In Heroes the invisible dude called Peter an empath, and thats what he is. I feel I'm like that in my own cold cruel way. I think about others and myself in many directions. Too much thinking about other stuff, not enough focus on my tasks at hand. Surely there is a proper gig for someone with this condition.

The more I talked to people the more I realize how common it is for people to struggle with their lives and purposes in life (like Po has found from his research). The choices we make at 15 determine our destiny at 25, and at 25 for 35, etc. And its really only at 35 or so that we become cognizant of this cycle and want to break out if its not going where we want it to. Post 35 there is much you can really do. Those who realize it earlier at 25 are far ahead of the curve.

For me, I ponder the many goals I have and which to attempt to really focus on. The more opportunities we have, the harder it is to choose the right one. Extreme case in point: A poor farmer in China has but like 3 choices. Farm and struggle, steal and risk being shot, or be a vagrant. Not really much else. Most of us have far too many choices in comparison.