The Why

I recall an episode of Homicide, one of the detectives sought to understand the "why" of a senseless killing and racked her brain to find out why. The other detectives told her to forget it and just move on. She eventually confronted the perp in prison and found out the why, and in the end, the why didn't make any sense. The why doesn't really matter at times, sometimes it just happens and sometimes its just meant to be.

For me, the "Why" is important. Part of being an engineer is to always ask the question of why and how. Understanding is engineering.

I tried to understand the Why behind my friends recent suicide and the Why behind my ex-gf breaking up with me. In the end it doesn't matter because its done and in the past. Living backwards doesn't do anyone any good, even for an engineer.

For me, the current "Why" is why I am moving to Tokyo. Many ask, and I give my answers whether they are good and believable I don't know. But here it is, on Aug 2nd, 2007 I proclaim:

"Top 5 reasons why Doug is moving to Tokyo"
5. Family is there, good to reconnect, be closer to mom when she is in Japan
4. Don't want to look back in my old age and wish I had done it when I could have
3. Good mix of friends to hang with and alot of cute girls to date in Tokyo (Read: Girls!)
2. Job prospects look very good there, better than here, although not as easy a life (Read: Money)
1. Decided after gf breakup to try living life a little more. Time for a change (Read: Ex-GF)

So thats it. I wont profess they are good reasons or bad, but thats what I honestly think are my reasons.